Stop spending time doing things you hate and start doing things you love.
I've been there.
I've wanted to throw my computer out the window more times than I can count.
I have said bad things and my motto is "I hate technology."
I yell when I can't get the stupid computer to indent just one line and if anyone says "put it in a spreadsheet" I walk away slowly before I punch them.
So, believe me when I say I know the frustration of trying to do something you don't understand.
I know how bad it sucks to do something that frustrates you.
I know editing. I know emotional editing. I know how to take some scraps of nothing and make it into something.
I know how to pick the right music (with a legal use license) and match that music up to the beats and transitions to make you feel something.
I've had client mamas tell me countless times that their videos have made them cry. In a good way.
I've had client business owners tell me over and over that I've made them proud and excited. They can't wait for everyone to see.